I wonder if I killed him by moving to the mountains last year. He was so healthy in NJ and as soon as we got here he dealt with allergies, hot spots, ear infection. Then this year it was just one thing after another: kidney infection, mysterious mass, kidney disease, more allergies, heart disease, floating fluid, hyperthyroidism, elevated this, low that. I wonder if I made the wrong choice by moving here and it’s my fault he’s not alive. He didn’t get outside time here or sunshine. I couldn’t open the windows for fresh air bc everyone has allergies. Things had gotten so much better for me since moving to NC but worse for him and now he’s not here at all and I can’t go back and do it over.