Sorry for not answering calls, texts, messages.  Thank you for all the kind words and love.  

I am home, with Lucy, who doesn’t seem to realize/notice her brother is gone.  I am not okay. I have off work the next few days.  

I keep calling out for him but he’s not here anymore. I have never done this before and with how sudden it all was, I have no idea how to navigate this kind of loss. 

Thank you. I had some water and food.  

Here’s the Winnie the Pooh from his obit.  

Some are asking for ways to help me: 

1. Bring Linus back 
2. Hug your pets extra 
3. Suggestions on how to memorialize him
4. Suggestions on how to grieve 
5. Donations to Sister Kitten here in Asheville 
6. Donations to me this whole ordeal cost $3,500 

Lots of thoughts and feels. I’m absolutely gutted and in shock. I’m just trying to remember to breathe and not bother the neighbors w my cryscreams.