Thank you.  Thank you. Thank you.

I “slept” 12 hours and woke up to the entire hospital bill is paid off. I even have enough to pay for some of the family vet bill too.

On top of the absolute shock of Linus’ sudden passing, I was flabbergasted with how I’d pay the $3,500 hospital bill. Thankful for Care credit to help in the moment.

This helps ease the pain a little bit. And Lucy, too.  She hasn’t left my side. People have dropped off food, sent flowers, so sweet.  Where can I get a defibrillator, though?

I made a little memorial for Linus. It hurts to type or say his name. I’m calling out for him, using all his nicknames, and he doesn’t appear.  I’m looking under the bed, in little cubbies, everywhere for him, but can’t find him.

He got sick on Friday, by Saturday he was in the hospital, stayed 3 days and was better so I brought him home. Maybe he needed to say goodbye to his things and Lucy. She didn’t even hiss at him or attack when he got out of the carrier.  On Tuesday he was gone.

I am okay w my decision to let him go and happy we got to make it together. He told me, I listened, and I held him until his last breath. I told him how much I love him, how happy he’s made me, how much I’ll miss him. I rubbed my face in his fuzzy belly and kissed his forehead.