I made the bed and changed the sheets.

Lucy jumped on the bathroom counter to drink from the sink – a first since Monday.

I went to the pool. She sat on his chaise.

I

moved my body by wandering Home Goods for a hour. Jk. Sort of. I really did go bc last week I bought a new calendar and filled it with appts, medication schedules, etc. I had to toss it and get a new one. Also picked up some new hair clips and a surprise for Lucylu.

I felt guilty leaving her alone so long but she seemed okay when I got back.

In her I see my own progress reflected and that motivates me to not live in the sadness. More than her own grief for his absence, I think she’s grieving for me.

I think she likes her surprise.