I finally made dinner on this side of the island. Lucy also came into the kitchen. After she ate she sat on the carpet staring at me. Is she in this spot bc it was his spot? Or is she in this spot bc it used to always be occupied and now isn’t? Both? I…

I went to the pool to feel the sun on my skin. It was okay. I read the book someone gave me on pet loss and listened to a podcast someone recommended on losing a pet. When I opened the door to my apartment I was heartbroken that Linus didn’t run to greet me. I…

My heart sunk and my stomach did flips when I heard a thump and looked over to see Lucita. He and I had a ritual where he’d creep along the windows until he reached the desk. I’d groan about it but he’d find his space to my left where I’d stick my head in his…

I haven’t been able to sit on the couch so I just hang out in bed. Lucy doesn’t mind. I have work again tomorrow though and going back to my desk will be triggering for sure. I miss him so much.

I made the bed and changed the sheets. Lucy jumped on the bathroom counter to drink from the sink – a first since Monday. I went to the pool. She sat on his chaise. I moved my body by wandering Home Goods for a hour. Jk. Sort of. I really did go bc last week…